A Joyful Army of Six

We are Brian and Cara Bergeron. We currently live, homeschool, work, and play soccer in beautiful Southcentral Oregon. We are children of God, children of two marvelous sets of parents who are still happily married, children of the '80s, children who fell in love when we were but children, children who have inherited four unexpected and undeserved blessings from the Lord--Brandt, Gresham, Seth, and Evangeline. Together we are (as Eva will tell you with a shout) "in the Lord's army. Lethirrrr!"

Thursday, April 26, 2007

Precious Moments

Last night my mom and dad helped all four of the kids put together a puppet show for my birthday. It was all priceless, including my dad's shivering rabbit with an English accent, Brandt's puns delivered without understanding, Gresham's queen slapping the king because he wanted to go out hunting foxes (I hope that vignette wasn't gleaned from everyday experience), Eva poking her head through the stage to say that the king was taking a trip to Oakland, and Seth's dialogue-free, action-packed fight. We laughed and laughed.

Earlier in the day, I took Brandt out with me on a "date." We painted 18 tiles at our local paint-your-own-pottery and then ate a great lunch. From there we went to a local antique store and had one of those too-weird-to-brush-off providential experiences...

For 6 years Brian has been searching for a church pew to put in an entryway or mudroom area. For years both the extra space in the house and the pew have eluded us. Several options have presented themselves but the timing or the product or the price were always off somehow. Nevertheless Brian clung to the idea and I've joked with him that the next thing he'll be buying is an antique pulpit so that we can do family worship right! When we measured our mudroom for a bench, its 100" length suggested either a behemoth bench or the as-yet-unlocated church pew. But here we sit in Southern Oregon--not exactly a thriving church culture. Why didn't we find something when we actually lived in the Bible Belt? I looked a bit online and couldn't find anything in decent repair for less than $700--unless I was willing to fly to England--and that wasn't in the budget for this (or any) month. Yesterday I walked into Spring Street Antiques with Brandt and told the owner that I was looking for a bench, to which she replied, "How about a church pew?" The quip that my brain unwillingly offered but that my mouth refused to say was, "Did the Holy Spirit tell you to say that?" I followed her husband out to the side yard where he showed me an 8 foot (and 1 inch) wide, sturdy and plain orange church pew. Yes, I did say orange. At $115 it was perfect. We bought it and thanked the Lord.

From the antique store, Brandt and I progressed to Home Depot where I bought the kitchen sink for our new house. I scooted it out into the aisle and Brandt convinced me that the two of us could pick it up and put it in the cart together, despite its being nearly my size and two times his weight. But I was so impressed by his valor that I put my better judgement aside and the two of us picked it up. Alas, (Brandt's) height was not on our side and we had to be rescued by two kind construction workers shopping nearby. After we paid there was still the matter of getting it into the car; but through Brandt's determination and a bit of female ingenuity, we managed. From there Brandt offered to take the cart back to its spot. As he was taking the cart, it escaped his control and he had to run after it. I was impressed by his situational awareness and then even more so when he chased another runaway cart and brought it back to its rightful place. He didn't even know anyone was watching. It was another precious moment.

As I got ready for bed last night, I ran through the events of the day in my mind. I was full of the scenes that make a woman grateful to be a mom. Yesterday the blessings showered down and it was good to bear the title "Mom." But as I contemplated Proverbs 31, I realized that THAT wife/mother is never mentioned in combination with puppet shows, lunches out, shopping trips or situationally aware children. Not that I think she would have a problem with such things if she could fathom the leisure time required to enjoy them , but she seems to be so "un-21st century." She's all about drudgery and labor--without making them drudgery and labor. She's inextricably linked with the kinds of precious moments brought about by hard work. I'm pretty sure she never read "Parenting" magazine because "quality time" wasn't mentioned once. She works with her hands. She grows her own food. She rises early--to which my 21st century mind and body say "argh!" Her arms are strong from growing grapes and laboring hard. She stays up late at night--not chatting by the fire but WORKING. She clothes her family and cares for the poor. She sells the excess of her labors and covers every bit of the work with wisdom, kindness and compassion. Not a word is mentioned about "mom things"--no planning the family vacation, reading on the couch, going to the gym, coaching the soccer team, or tickle wars. She may have some of that and yet it is not for those 21st century reasons that her children rise up and called her "Blessed."

As I contemplated the precious moments of yesterday, I was well aware that today I would not be queen for the day. And yet somehow God reminded me that the moments of work and discipline, cleaning and directing, monotonous though they may be, are His work. They are precious moments in His sight if they are covered with wisdom, kindness, and compassion. Father, make it so...





It was one of those moments when it is good to be a mom. Or so I think.

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Framing Complete


Here is the latest picture of the house. The framing and insulation inspections were done last week and everything checked out okay. This week the drywallers started hanging "rock" (Brian says I have to use the proper terminology) and they are scheduled to finish by the end of the month. Travis's brother Blaine is also working on our grading in the yard and so we will place boulders on Friday and Saturday. By the end of next week, we hope that there will no longer be a trace of an ICF showing either on the exterior or interior. All of our lighting has arrived as has the whole house vac and a good portion of our tile. I finished the drawings of the boys' built-in beds and their window seat last night. Closets are next on the list of things to draw.

We are still thrilled with Travis, our contractor, although we fear that he is getting discouraged as he worries that he underbid the job. I have a lot of empathy for artisans and craftsmen who can't say no to a thrilling job, despite the fact that it makes little to no business sense. Brian would never do such a thing but I come from a long line of such people. I wish that we could pay him much more as he has built a solid house for us and treated us honestly throughout the process. I don't believe that there is a day that goes by that we do not wonder and thank God for His provision of Travis.

Oaten Cakes

We've adapted this recipe from a REALLY dry and tasteless version of Celtic Oaten Cakes from a kid's history book and a completely oatless pancake from Laurel's Kitchen. Go figure! I've made these numerous times and believe that the oat/flour ratio is right; but countless variables may interfere, including the brand of oats you use. So if at first you don't succeed...

2 cups old-fashioned oats
3 cups rice milk (or other milk)
4 Tablespoons honey
4 large eggs
2/3 cup grapeseed or canola oil
3 cups whole wheat or barley flour
2 teaspoons salt
4 teaspoons baking powder
1 Tablespoon Earth Balance or butter

Soak oats and rice milk with honey for at least 5 minutes in a large mixing bowl. Add in eggs and oil and beat thoroughly.

Preheat griddle to medium-high temperature (I set mine to 6 out of 10).

Pour in flour and then pour salt and baking powder on top of oat & milk mixture. Stir in gently with a fork until just combined. Drop by 1/3 cupfuls onto griddle greased with 1 teaspoon Earth Balance or butter. Turn when pancakes are looking just dry around the edges. I discontinue using Earth Balance on the griddle after the first three pancakes.

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Pitch and Patience

Our house was difficult to roof because the pitches are so steep. The 2-story portion is a 10-in-12 pitch which means it rises 10 inches for every 12 inches it runs horizontally and the great room portion of the house (the part that sticks its nose out toward the street) is a 12-in-12 pitch which means it's even more sloped. It took Travis and his crew about 2 weeks to deck the roof before we could bring in the roofing crew. That was two weeks where we could only watch, wait, and pray that no one was killed while working on our house in the sleet and snow. See the footing holds in the 2nd photo down. Last year, when Ed and Judy's house behind ours was being constructed, a roofer with over 20 years of experience fell off Ed & Judy's roof and nearly died. Here are the photos of our dangerous but now finished roofing project:

Older Photos of House

For those of you who are really interested in the details of this project, I thought I'd include a few more photos from the past 4 months that didn't make the cut in previous blogs.


Post-Christmas, foggy day: walls are all up and the trusses are layed on top of the house but they're not in position.


Now the trusses for the great room & master bedroom are in place.


Looking from the great room (kitchen, dining, living rooms) toward the kitchen, hallway to the master bedroom, and the master bedroom and bath


Looking down from the second story (kids' rooms & guest room) into the great room. We could walk (or fall) through walls when there wasn't any insulation or drywall.


Looking at the back of the house from up on top of the ridge. If you could look behind yourself, you'd see a slice of land and then Upper Klamath Lake directly below you.

Friday, April 13, 2007

Pragmatism

I haven’t blogged in ages but my brain has nevertheless been active despite tile and lighting orders, fireplace sketches, and meetings with the electrician. I feel that I ought to split this entry up into five or six days. It really IS unmanageable as I've been "writing" it in my head for a month. And for that I’m sorry. Perhaps you could read a paragraph per week, sort of the way you might read a textbook. I won’t be the wiser if you choose that route. Without further ado, for your reading pleasure or torture, my thoughts on Pragmatism.

Our family, along with two other families in our squadron, is going through a biblical worldview course by Focus on the Family called “The Truth Project.” We’re not really studying but, more precisely, surveying the various ways that people seek truth. Last week we surveyed philosophy and where Truth comes from. This week we surveyed anthropology and studied the nature of evil. Via my one and only philosophy class in college, I was vaguely familiar with Socratic thinking, still ruminating on Rene Descartes’ defense of God’s existence, and still puzzling over the upside down (my opinion) logic of Immanuel Kant. But I’d not known that my own mantra was a philosophy—and a distinctly American one at that!

In the circles in which I've traveled, to be pragmatic has been tantamount to a compliment. Pragmatic people made things happen. They produced results and checked stuff off their to-do lists. Not that most pragmatists would subscribe wholeheartedly to the entire philosophy of the system, but it nevertheless is helpful to understand its roots. Pragmatists live by the worldview that “what we’ve got is all we’ve got. It may not make rational or transcendent sense, but we can still do something with it.” C.S. Pierce, William James, and John Dewey, the architects of the philosophy, said that meaning was merely in what we could perceive (i.e. NOT outside of ourselves) and that the only function of thought is to guide action in a course that leads to the most success and value for the least possible short-term cost. In other words, the truth of the proposition is dependent upon the success or failure of the result.

Increasingly, over the past few years, I have winced to see that Pragmatism is not only a stumbling block to my faith in God; it is the antithesis of my faith in God. Pragmatism is faithlessness itself.. It is the sugar that we prosperous lovers of fast food swallow most frequently, believing it to be good for us simply because it tastes so good.

Under Pragmatism, the truth of the claim is dependent upon the perceived success or monetary value of the outcome. For example:

Truth claim: Prostitution is a good thing for society and should be legalized.
Evidence: It decreases criminal activity, provides jobs for women who would otherwise be unemployed, and provides benefit to both parties involved.

Truth claim: It is wrong to discipline a child.
Evidence: Using methods other than discipline (such as coaxing, bribery, agreements, and withholding privileges), you can obtain the desired result without running the risk of making the child and/or yourself uncomfortable.

Truth claim: It is undesirable to have children.
Evidence: Little people contribute nothing to society and drain the pools of human labor and finances.

Truth claim: It is foolish to stay in a difficult marriage.
Evidence: Choosing to stay in a difficult marriage will result in further quarreling, mental and emotional stress for both parties, and can result in violence or emotional retreat.

As ludicrous as are some of these pragmatic arguments and as realistic as are others, they have one thread in common: pragmatic “truths” have no device by which to account for intangibles—things that we can’t see but that we know, down deep in our souls, are precious. Pragmatism can’t measure freedom, selflessness, joy, human dignity, emotional peace, honor, or inherent beauty and therefore it cannot bring those intangible values to bear upon its truth constructs. Although all of the Pragmatists of my acquaintance (including myself when I’m acting like one) might like to account for such things, we cannot do so without invoking some other value system outside the realm of Pragmatism.

The other activity in which Pragmatism fails is in measuring effects over an expanse of time. Pragmatists cannot account for long-term effects because they’re so busy acting upon the “truths” validated by short-term evidence . For instance, in the truth claim which says “it is undesirable to have children,” the evidence is swayed by the immediate result of having a baby—tons of diapers, hours of screaming, and whopping helpings of thankless self-sacrifice only to be followed by more of the same. Yes, in the short-term, babies and toddlers are a drain to everyone and everything they touch (short-term effect)—but that assumes that they never grow up to get jobs and care for their parents (long-term effect).

Despite its evident drawbacks, Pragmatism continues thrive in its American breeding ground. This is for two reasons that I can see and, I’m sure, for more reasons that I fail to understand. Pragmatism is concerned with the payoff--and what more objective indicator for success can we find than possessions? And which country has the most citizens with the most “stuff” (“Better Off French? World Magazine, May 13, 2006)? Schwack! Americans have washing machines, computers, televisions, pillow shams, and Elvis paintings by which to measure their short-term success. We coined it here: “The one who dies with the most toys wins!” Compounding the success of a philosophy concerned with payoffs is the fact that we Americans are mesmerized by the temporal and focus, almost exclusively, on the short term. When those same truth constructs prove false or inadequate as time goes on, instead of blaming our truth constructs, we’re prosperous and active people who can conveniently find plenty of alternative causes at hand.

For instance, when we were looking for the cause of Seth’s constant tantrums and screaming, we failed to remove corn from his diet. Corn was one of the few grains he could eat (or so we thought) and it was inconvenient to take it out of his diet. Honestly it was not only inconvenient; it would have been painful. Seth loves cornbread and corn on the cob. And it was summertime. Our truth construct: “Corn is good for Seth” was validated by the fact that eating cornbread made him happy and it made my life in the kitchen easier. The problem was that Seth continued to throw tantrums, complain of headaches, break out in rashes, and scream hysterically in the night. His fits were much less frequent than before he’d come off the wheat, berries, and sugar but we were still dealing with at least one miserable day per week. When those miserable days came, instead of seeing the corn that he’d eaten a day or two ago, I saw a later bedtime as the cause or I pointed to his brothers as being more irritating than usual. There was always something else to blame. I was so enamored by the positive effects of the corn that despite my newly-acquired knowledge about the powerful interactions of food with the human immune system, I failed to realize that something eaten a day or two ago was having long-term effects.

More sobering and to-the-point is the example of my parenting of Brandt when he was young. While I’m sure that I said I was parenting “by faith and not by sight” (what else would a Christian say?), my truth construct was that God’s way of discipline administered in love must not work. I never would have admitted that to myself, much less said it to you; but when I could finally look back with some degree of perspective, I saw my faithless heart as plainly as I could see the county dump. Every time Brandt gave Gresham a right hook to the gut, every time he woke us in the middle of the night with belligerent demands, every time he said “No!” to my face (and boy did he know how to say it!), every time he insisted upon whining instead of asking, I chalked up more evidence for my truth proposition. I had days of sins heaped up as ample evidence that God’s way “just wasn’t working.” Fortunately (providentially) I didn’t have anything else to try, not having been raised in a manipulative household and not having read many “other” parenting books. I was stuck using God’s truth constructs to raise my child but I chose not to exercise the faith that would complete its efficacy. Outwardly, I was following God’s way. Inwardly I was sure that God was failing us. “But God, who is rich in mercy, because of His great love with which He loved us, even when we were dead in trespasses, made us alive together with Christ (by grace you have been saved)” (Ephesians 2: 4-5). Apparently it’s not only a verse about salvation.

So I applied the discipline and said the right words; but I was plagued mentally and emotionally by frustration. This, in turn, often influenced by behavior toward Brandt. I couldn’t believe God’s plan because I couldn’t see it. And that made me desperate. There were many times when I sinned against my son by speaking to him in an exasperated tone or by reinforcing his rebellion with pleading and coaxing and then, in despair, administering the discipline I should have given at the first. What was the poor child to think? And then, after years of faithful discipline accompanied by faithless thinking, the Lord began to change Brandt’s heart. And in so doing, He changed mine. He softened us both visibly. Thank God for the prayers of the saints! Brandt began to obey cheerfully and immediately. I began to believe in God’s power to change a heart of stone into a heart of flesh. Oh that I, who had seen that power before in my own life, had believed that as I ought! Shame flooded me at the same time as I experienced the relief of seeing God’s ways bearing fruit. I am still ashamed by my phariseeic efforts, but since Brandt’s journey through toddlerhood, we’ve continued to have the opportunity to see God grow both them and us.

Gresham followed Brandt into “the terrible twos”—but in completely different ways. And just when we thought we had some of the parental formulas within our grasp, God gave us Seth and Eva—a whole different set of issues than either Brandt or Gresham. Each time, trusting God has become a little bit easier even when there is more at stake. Each time, I get the opportunity to see my phariseeic heart just a bit more clearly. Each time He reminds me that the blessings are here now if I obey unquestioningly and they are waiting for later also. By faith, I don’t have to worry about the long-term consequences of short-term gratification. By faith, I can put to death my pragmatic nature.

Seen in light of its limitations, Pragmatism shows itself as a worthless philosophy. So why do we continue to run to it, embracing it as the de facto operating procedure for our lives? It is because the alternative is almost unthinkable. The alternative is faith in God’s principles and faith in His immutable and priceless Word. Faith in imperishable and eternal truth constructs is not a mode in which we can operate without the direct intervention of God. And that requires that we humble ourselves and do, without requiring an answer or a result beforehand, exactly what God has called us to do. When we trust God as He has revealed Himself in His word, He takes into account both the “intangibles” and the long-term effects in His perfect truth constructs. Not only that, He takes into account the people who are likely to be affected by those truth constructs. He says He loves little ones precisely BECAUSE they have nothing to offer in the short term (Matthew 18). He says He loves us although we have nothing to offer but our filthy rags and whitewashed hearts. Those who follow Him will reign with Him in a kingdom of intangibles: a kingdom of love that can’t be measured, a kingdom of joy that will never end. And all of it lasts longer, much, much longer than the short-term.